As we end the month of April, I would be re-missed not to do a post about the significance of month. April has been deemed Sexual Assault & Child Abuse Awareness month to bring an understanding about this violation that occurs globally that is connected to everyone in some form or fashion. We all know someone who this has happen too or it could even be you. All the statistics mention 1 in 4 girls and 1 and 5 boys have been impacted. In my personal opinion, I believe it happens to more than what people wish to confess.
I know for many years I carried the shame and guilt of being molested by my father deep within. I also hide being sexually assaulted, violated or having inappropriately encounters by family, friends and even strangers. This definitely takes a toll on your identity and your self worth. You learn to hide behind your story and become powerless behind it thus taking on an new identity that is unrecognizable to many including yourself.
I can admit that this is how I felt for many many many years. Notice I said many years. But, in the fullness of time there came a point where it’s time to release the shame, relinquish the burden, and reconnect to my God given power! Years ago, I did just that during this special month to reclaim who I was meant to be and position myself towards my purpose.
In April of 2014 I started this blog, this simple little blog to share my thoughts, to share my truths and share my power. Little did I know how powerful this would truly be. In the midst, of me being more comfortable with my story and the power that ignited from it began to spark within others. It started others to recognize their own truth and be able to give themselves permission to finally tell their truth. I am filled with so much joy when another person can truly begin the journey into finding their own power. I have so many to share over the years that are meaningful and purposeful but today I would like to share just one.
Today, a young lady shared with me that knowing my story gave her the power and courage to finally share hers which she did on this day. I am so honored that she gave me permission to share her power with you! This is what she said:
“Today is the end of Sexual Assault Awareness Month. I’m a survivor. Wow! The first time it happened I was 14 years old on my way to school. It was a stranger. 40 years ago! Can I keep it real with you and tell you it is still extremely difficult to share. When I play it back in my head, it was one of the most terrifying days of my life’ I can still see it like it was yesterday. I thought I was going to die. I fought for my life that day. I cried out to God to save me. I will never forget the rapist said, “I’m your God now”.
For many years, At first I couldn’t understand why God let this happen to me. I carried the guilt, shame, and Blame for being raped. In my mind it was my fault. If I would have just followed my mother’s instructions to a tee. I carried the guilt of the hurt and shame I believed I brought to my family. I remember the rape kit at the hospital, being connected to a lie detector test at the police station and looking through books full of mug shots. I remember I had just gotten a brand new coat and shoes before this happened. I never got my coat back. They kept if for evidence. I really did LOVE that coat.
The effects of being raped stay with you for a lifetime. It affects victims in different ways. For me, after being raped a second time, I was convinced that was all I was worth. I believed there was something wrong with me. Men wanted to rape me but nobody wanted to love me. So I became extremely promiscuous.
I share this not for your pity or for attention but because God spared my life so I can tell my story. So I can let some woman or girl know that it was not her fault and to beg her to please talk to someone. Don’t let someone steal your life. We may never forget but we can heal and go on to live life free of anger, guilt, and shame.” ~ Yolanda
Wow! all I can say is that I am so proud of her for having the courage to release what she has been holding on to for so long for the first time. It’s a start and the beginning towards over her stepping into her power! Ok, so now you see exactly how Powerful your story not only is to yourself but to others.
This is the message I want to release to everyone reading this whether it is today, tomorrow or sometime in the future. Own your story, embrace your story, release your story. You have the power within and it’s time to give yourself permission to know that your story is powerful, your truth matters, and the purpose behind your pain has now become your oyster if you let it! Simply because when you give yourself permission to tell your story, it helps someone else the power to tell theirs!
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